Hiatus over

Okay, I was not on a hiatus. I was raising 3 kids. But now that my baby is about to turn 3 next week, and is really not a baby (except for the fact that she is still in diapers because she refuses to potty train) we're having another one. Baby #4. Due in September. I'm almost 16 weeks along. Not quite halfway, but close. This has by far been my most challenging pregnancy. I've thought at times that I don't know how other people do it when it's like this every pregnancy. My first 3 pregnancies were honestly so easy. I mean, I'm still not throwing up or anything, but the intense nausea and exhaustion were just plain nuts. My friend thinks (she's prego too) it's because we're just older. Perhaps. I've recently joined the 30 club, so perhaps it's just not as easy the older the body gets. Or perhaps this one's just harder. I've heard that happens.


So today I had a few of those moments that left me thinking, "Seriously, what is going on with these children?" and maybe a little bit of, "Why are we adding to this chaos with another one?" But they were only moments and I still love my babies (who are currently downstairs quietly watching "Clifford the Big Red Dog") and wouldn't change a thing.  But really, when your kids are running down the hallway at church like banshees, and one is flipping the light switches on and off repeatedly, and you're growling their full name as loudly as you can from the other end of the hallway without yelling, you just have a moment when you go, "Wha??" I had to call the hubs (who was at work) when I got home because I just needed a quiet moment of rational conversation so my mind could process the madness that we had just experienced (there was more of it. That was just a highlight) and move on with the rest of the day.


As I was leaving church, someone had stopped to congratulate us on the pregnancy and I had mentioned how we were having "one of those days" and he reminded me, "But it's so worth it." And he's right. My kids rock. And seriously, they're so cute. My big boy is almost 8. When did that happen? And he's starting to mature a bit and be more empathetic and it's such a beautiful thing. My second is almost 5 and will be going to kindergarten in the fall. *mind blown* This phase of life can be so hectic and so stressful, but it's so awesome. Yup, that about says it all.


My life is awesome. :)